0301 hrs
wednasday
16th march


changes. i used to love them, i really did. and they used to like me as well, it seems. for...they always have been endorsing me without fail. this change, but, has some precarious minitues. it is one which gonna change me completely, if not my life.

academics, they suffer if not taken care of. and i do not take care of them pretty well. out of question. the viva today was a sheer example of that, how many awakenings will turn the page. and will the page turned and worked on. not seems like.

sometimes my being so selfish sucks. can i ever do something which does not involve my personal gain in one form of the other? not really...not at least have a sight to see. architecture of life is so one dimentional, even if i change the perspective, the view is the same.

no more thoughts,one thing which occured to me to write is...i love her.

aashu

for u......

lissome she stands,
epitomizing tenderness.
a glance down and a beauty mounts.
smiles she, and the breezes follow.
stars twinkle somewhere in the deep.
she touches, and makes life so easy,
shies ..and let u smile, all the way.
its for her, that love is,
its all her, else its nothing.
there is this girl...
which is somewhere in you.
it is not about u , u will say,
yah but its about her.
and u both reincarnated together,
.and on this incarnation day..
i know not ...anything,i love both of you.

rain...and me

1612 hrs
dept lab
13 march

problems. do they inform pre coming? must be a joke, did u say? not really.all the while you go on following your heart, never realising that its the heart which cause all the problems. time for the head to be the head. seems like.

yesternite was fun. all the years and the seconds spent making resolutions seem so small in that small moment when you are yourself. all the relations, all the bondages...set free. and you realise that its you and nobody else who really exists. do they? not really. not at least for you. this is not good, that is not bad...who wants to know whats good and whats bad.not me at least, for, if i want ...i would just be a listener. and i hate that.

i used to a good listener. but then...i used to be a good person to. dont know if i am anymore. and faint if u may...i dont want to know too. who will damn get bored by these stuff about stupidity and genuinity. this questionanire itself is very stupid.

the rains poured heavily tonite, and i was lost. sometimes the old has to be ran over to lay foundations for the new. and you dont have to confirm that the new will be stable, coz its the path which matters, not the destination.well...not always.

life ..is a rain...get drenched aashu.